Stargazer

As we stargaze side by side

You ask me to pick out a star

and name it after you

I search all through the never-after

But in vain I strain my eyes

Don't you realize?

Your name is already written

On my ever-beating heart

Spelled out in stars

The stars I see in your eyes

Are more dazzling than the heavens

Don't you realize?

Empty hopes and False promises

Dark is your mind, as the sea

Deep in shadow, clear and clean.

Hidden corners hide half-rememberances.

In years' time

You will return to me

Across land and ocean

Through sky

Open is your heart, to rain

Slowly, beats chime into your sleeping pillow

You dream as I dream of you.

In a different time

In your different mind

Sits a box, small and humble

Colourless but wrapped

In crushed velvet

Which shimmers every now and then

From the light of your sparkling eyes.

Fresh Fall

She sits in a darkened room

The girl with eyes like the sea

The inside of an oyster shell

Pearls dropping on her knee

She sits in a silent room

The girl with hair like rope

Strong enough to pull down a dam

And drown all thoughts of hope

Sit sits in an empty room

The girl with lips like cherries

One kiss will break a thousand hearts

And put a mind at ease

She rises like the morning sun

And opens the dirty window

To gaze upon the newborn world

Not a footstep in the snow.

Still

There is still a hair

In the sink where you washed

This morning

There is still a fingernail

On the floor from when you cut them

Yesterday

There is still the smell of spices

In the kitchen where you cooked

On Friday

There is still a breath

On my mirror where you sighed

A wet stain on my pillow where you cried

And a warm space on my carpet

Where your last footstep fell and died.

That Which Doesn't Kill Me

That which doesn't kill me makes me stronger

That which doesn't kill me makes me stronger

That which doesn't kill me makes me stronger

The longer I repeat it the more I believe it, as I feel it

sinking into me, like drinking whiskey and coke

and smoking all night till I choke on the joke that you made in the bed that was me and I'm not gonna fade as soon as you say 'Sorry'.

Now I'm not just gonna let this lie and hide in my mind what I'm feeling inside.

I know why you lied, but it's beyond my comprehension how it could be your intention

to accuse and abuse and use women, left like tissues on your bedroom floor.

Did I mention you can cry me a fucking river for the one who delivered you into temptation.

What a revelation that people are cruel, only fuel for the fire. You conspire to inspire a trust and a lust which must only disgust and offend you coz it sends you right back to where you thought you would be when she said those three little words.

How absurd that you've clearly not learned to let go of the hate, so great that the weight will crush you and push you down so deep you cannot sleep for fear that you'll never climb back.

You sent a shock to my system, started the rhythm of the heart in my chest, just a test for me to pass at long last.

I will learn from this

I will grow

Like a flower, I will tower, unaffected by weeds and the seeds of haters who just gonna hate.

Too late now to hide away in your corner. Should I warn her that though he may like it, he's never gonna put a ring on it?

All the things he said took him from one bed to another.

Go to your mother if you want a bosom for a pillow

I'm not your willow, a shelter from the world, just a fucked up girl looking for my own peace of mind, being kind, not resigned to desire to burn others with my fire (although, she is smart to stay away from me, guess she's not all that dumb)

Now I'm numb from the neck up, need a check up. You really fucked up my system, now listen:

You might trick me once, I won't let you trick me twice

I'll follow my own advice and be nice until positivity comes through my creativity.

And I can finally see that all I need is me.

What a Woman Wants

Do not send me roses

Or other such dead posies

I will not cut their stems in half

I will not put them in a vase

Do not buy me stylish shoes

Or dresses in baby pinks and blues

I will not wear them on the street

Or show them off upon my feet

Do not give me wedding bands

Or things to wear upon my hands

I will not walk down any aisle

Or stand out front as though on trial

Do not take me to far off places

Or dazzle me with bright-lit spaces

I will not gasp in awe and delight

I will not photograph the sights

Only take me as you find

Love that I know my own mind

Run with me and be my own

Whisper things when we're alone

About the way the world will be

When I have you, and you have me.

A Clock in Place of a Heart

They took out my heart and put in a clock

If you stand close you can hear it

Tick...

Tock...

Tick...

Tock...

Locking away away the time I've been spending

Mending my broken ribs

Telling spoken fibs

About little things the make no difference

But for the inference that there's some

New Truth to be found

Deep undeground, where we now grow

Our children's children

But that's in the past

Where all things last

In the memory, through time

Until the colours fade and the words no longer...